I’ve been curious about bdsm since I discovered porn. It wasn’t until I was in my early 20s that I dove deeper and found people in the bdsm community online and got more excited and intrigued. I did a lot of online play and eventually tried things in person and loved it. I had some good and some bad experiences but overall enjoyed being in the lifestyle. Now I’m 27. Last year I started dating someone into bdsm but our relationship ended up turning vanilla. I’m not sure if it was my desires changing or just our particular relationship where him being in a power position just wasn’t going to happen and didn’t feel right. Now that I’m single I’m unsure of what I want. I still mainly watch and enjoy bdsm related porn but the thought of having a Dom just doesn’t excite me as much as it used to. I’m torn because in the past I felt like my sex life wouldn’t be fulfilled without bdsm and now I just don’t know. Writing this I feel like maybe it’s just too soon to even consider any kind of sex. I’m just curious if anyone else has this experience of flowing in and out of attraction with bdsm. I appreciate any experiences or advice shared :)