I’m really into knife play possibly blood play I realize that before what I was doing wasn’t actually knife/ blood play I was just self harming I have a Dom but he’s not into it at all I’m just unsure of how to do it myself I feel like it might not work on my own bc I like that fear moment you get when a partner does it and your unsure of how far they’re going to go I have a huge CNC/ Knife play fantasy that I actually want to fulfill but I can’t do that scene on my own so I’m Trying to settle in doing knife play on my own any advice the scene I have wanted to do is me being asleep and woken up to having my panties cut off of my body along with fish nets and a dom rubbing the knife along my cheek and pulls back my hair to expose my throat to keep the knife in place across it to where I can feel the blade being pressed against me and they force themselves on me even when I say no I’ll start saying no and they eventually just cover my mouth with their hand and tell me to shut up or they’ll cut me that’s the main fantasy but iv added stuff to it when I think about it on occasion unsure of how to go about doing something similar on my own the only thing iv done to myself is just taking wax of my breasts with a knife and it’s ok but doesn’t exactly do it for me