I know red flag. I get it. We are almost 2 years past DDay. Things are bad with our R. She’s not trying or barely (super into depression and I get it but I can’t anymore) and I’ve all but given up. I haven’t said I love you to her in weeks. Not since the last time I said it she told me it felt like a lie (maybe it was). She texted me I love you today. I didn’t want to write it back. But I also don’t want to have a shitty night over it. I feel gross. Im lying to her. I don’t want to hurt her, but I don’t want to keep lying. I’m sure this will be something we get to fight over next MC.

It’s stupid. This last weekend was great. It was her bday and we spent time together and even had a little fun. But I felt nothing of love past a friendship. How do you make a marriage work. Sure marry your best friend and you’ll be happy or so they say. But she is far from my best friend. More like a roommate you lived with for years. You know them well but they are also just there. I don’t hate her anymore. I literally feel nothing towards her.

I’m so tired of this. I just want to be done. Not looking for advice just needed to rant. Thanks everyone. Hope your days are going better.