I talk a big game. It’s easy to say I’m done. It’s over. I don’t want to do this anymore. But in reality I’m terrified. WW has been so resistant to MC for years (she has many friends who ended up divorced than better off due to MC). I’ve begged her before to go. It wasn’t until I said I want a separation or a divorce If nothing changes that she agreed to go. Nothing has changed. And I feel like this will be our make or break. But I also feel it’s a day late and a dollar short. So why is it that she cheats. Gets to have her fun (yes I know she is dealing with her consequences). But she destroyed me. My trust in her, my self image and esteem. Made me think this was some how my fault for years. But I have to destroy my family. I have to decide to be happy apart or miserable and keep the peace. I love(loved) her. She was my person. Now she has taken everything from me. And yet I can’t take everything from her. She is a SAHM. I need her for daycare at least. She has zero life skills (I pretty sure she’s my 4th child more often than not). And there is zero way I can afford to support two households. Barely making it by with one. I’m not looking for anything here. I just needed to vent for a second. But has any other BS been here? How have you made it through? Did it go to divorce? I’m lost and don’t know what to do.