So some of you know my back story is fed up and I know most of you knew it would come to this. I didn’t want to see it. I thought I could get past this. I can’t. The fact she still loves him. Desires him. I’m done. I’m done fighting. I’m done trying. I’m done waiting for her to notice. I’m not looking for anything. I just needed to say it out loud. It doesn’t seem real. I just dropped the ultimate relationship ender word. I’m scared sh*tless. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t have a plan. I don’t have anything but I know this isn’t working. Well wish me luck. I have to go home to my WW soon and pretend everything is fine in front of the kids when I’m dying inside. And to top it all off my bday is Saturday. Should be a blast.