Last month my period was light and short, but I figured it was due to stress and my postpartum thyroiditis. This month I was late but figured it's just my body responding to low hormone levels and again, stress. I was wrong.

Now I'm in an impossible situation.

Do I drop my self care, forego my healing, and tie myself permanently to someone who may end up being a very unhealthy partner for me (post self discovery)? I've seen how he treats the mother of his children; he's a difficult man to co-parent with. We were only trying for a baby last year because I thought we'd parent as a team. I have no desire to do all of the single parent stuff all over again...

The alternative isn't much better.

Both options are hard and will be things I have to live with the rest of my life. I feel like an idiot for being in this situation as a grown ass woman. Therapy will be interesting Wednesday. Fuck.