I’m having a hard time today. We have MC every other week so I didn’t have it last week and my IC is canceled this week bc my psychologist is out of country. I guess I’m looking for support and strength to continue to be positive. If you’ve seen my post history, you know our situation is interesting bc we have an open relationship. I know the “open” part doesn’t mean he didn’t cheat.... but he waffles between thinking he didn’t cheat bc we were open, or just being unable or unwilling to cut things off with his AP. He keeps telling me that he wants me to be happy... and he doesn’t want to hurt me. But he still sees her every other week or so. I’ve told him I won’t stop being hurt until he cuts contact with her and does something to assure me he won’t do this again. It gets a bit better with every MC session.... but we only go every other week. He claims she’s just like any other friend now, and the only reason he goes over there is bc we can’t all hang out together like we can with his other friends. I feel like he still just doesn’t understand. The MC told him he is behaving like an 8 year old (no offense to well behaved 8 year olds) by not being able to give up something he “wants” to make the person he says he loves happy. I know a lot of people think I’m an idiot for staying in this, but with the progress we’ve made over the last 2 months I feel we’ll get where I need it to be eventually. It’s just taking so much longer than I wish it would. How do I not let the anxiety/depression take hold? My therapist told me to focus on the progress instead of what’s still wrong.... but it’s exhausting. I’m just waiting for the day he tells me he was wrong and he’s sorry and that he will never talk to her again.