I don’t think the argument we had yesterday would have happened if I hadn’t been looking at the screenshots. It’s the 2nd anniversary of when he started talking to his AP. The initial EA only lasted about a month but it was very intense and the screenshots still absolutely wreck me. I shouldn’t have been looking at them, but I did, and I guess I was feeling a little more vulnerable because of it and we had an argument about porn and now I feel like I’ve ruined everything. I feel like I want to give up right now tbh. I don’t know why I’m so anxious at the idea of deleting those screenshots. For whatever reason, no longer having the ability to go back and reference them makes me feel so scared. I probably should get rid of them though shouldn’t I? Is there any reason not to delete them? I have dozens of screenshots of him lavishing affection on her like this one. And they only upset me every time I see them, but also I’m just so scared to let them go.