I absolutely hate anxiety. I wanna enjoy life and not be so fucking scared of everything going badly. Its ruining my life and my sons life I feel like. Nothing is working, I have been trying everything for YEARS now. Medicine isn't working, psychologist isn't working and its been like 10 sessions so far... all the self help stuff is good and all but it doesn't change all the trauma and things that have happened to me that changed my brain and brought on this anxiety 20 years ago... I'm just so miserable and not sure what to do anymore. I want to find someone to love and to love me back,, but its impossible when i even get anxiety from texting sometimes.... I'm the most social antisocial person ever. What can I do to get better, even small steps? I do have a great sense of humor, it is very sarcastic and sometimes dark but I do pride myself on making others laugh...