Me: Single, no children, fit, educated, compassionate, dominant, 46-year-old man looking for a relationship with a younger woman.   1 GSD Puppy.

Interested in: A female partner, 18-35, single, no children, fit, highly intelligent, very compassionate, and wants kids.

Vocations: IT, neuroscience, psych research, premed, graphic design, and bodyguarding.

I love:  Yoga, martial arts, running, hiking, horse riding, painting, writing, reading, cooking, etc.

I speak: English, Spanish, German, Japanese

My long-term goal: To find love in the apocalypse, and then collect enough bottle caps or human skins to trade for our own little farm outside the irradiated zones? Tandem probings?! *shrug*

**Update**:

I am very flattered for the interest from such beautiful, young women.  It’s overwhelming but very flattering.  I’ve had too many of the wrong young women fall in-love with me in recent history, attaching their trauma to me and latching on.  But we were incompatible and they got hurt.  I don’t want to hurt anyone else.  Ever.

I need someone selfless.  I am selfless.  Without it, my compassion will be exploited and I will be in another unbalanced relationship.  I need someone who excelled in academics, like I did, or, could have, if they went to school; so, they understand that part of me and I don’t feel alone.  But compassion is so much more important to me.

I am presently a traumatized and broken old warrior/scientist/IT engineer/artist.  2 weeks ago, I passed out from exhaustion and injured myself because I have been caring for 2 dying parents and not myself and had gone with so little sleep for 4 weeks.  I will need recovery time.  I specialized in the area of medicine I injured myself in.  I know a lot about medicine.  I will fix this.  It requires time.  And patience.  From you.  Please.  I’ve spent 41 years (started at 5) protecting other people, and right now, I’m presently too broken to protect myself, much less another human, so I have to heal first.  It won’t take long with the right conditions.

To the young women who messaged me who I unconsciously pushed away due to trauma from recently failed relationships and a fear of abandonment: I am deeply and truly sorry.  You were gorgeous and thank you for your interest.  I am so sorry.  I wish I could have given you both the sweet, romantic version of myself you both deserved, and courted you the way I should have.  The timing was unfortunate and I didn’t know I had slipped into very old defense mechanisms I once fixed.  To everyone else who just read this: it will not happen again now that I am aware.  I will give whomever messages me a sincere and honest attempt to get to know me if there is mutual compatibility.

I’ve felt a little bit like a Ken doll being selected from a shelf.  A lot of interest in me, my body, and what I am, and not who.

I’m not looking for perfect.  I don’t need it.  I’m looking for perfect for me.  I want this to be forever.  No more failed attempts.  Please don’t hesitate to reach out and try.  I care about everyone, so it’s easy for me to fall in-love, but I’m trying to only fall in-love with the right person for the right reasons.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.  Merry Christmas everyone.  Please stay safe and travel and eat well during the holidays.  See your families.  Be happy if you can.  I wish you all the very best.

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