Hello ! Daddy bear here. I'm a romantic and affectionate middle aged bear who is looking for real love. I mean we both love each other deeply and want no one else kind of love. I know this may be a deal breaker but I've been in a loveless relationship for many years now and I don't want to spend the rest of my life with him. Unfortunately, my life circumstances are keeping us together. I fell out of love with him a long time ago and he was never in love with him. Back in my better days, I was the most ardent of the suitors and won his attention. I kind of wish that I hadn't tried so hard. I am a Christian, I am a spiritual person. I believe in God and I'd like to find another spiritual person. I just want that special man that he's my world and I am his. One day, I'd like to be married. Not just for the sake of being married but being able to vow before friends and family my love and loyalty in the presence of God. I am a simple bear but a deep thinker. I'm nothing special but I get inside my own head sometimes. I want someone who loves deeply, fully and with their full heart because that's the way I do. I find so much beauty in the small things. I used to buy my partner chocolates and a card at Valentines Day and get him a little something for our anniversary. He never wanted to do either things so I let it all fall by the wayside. I do not feel loved , I never did despite my best efforts . Anyways, I'm very loving and I love to snuggle. I think that I am demisexual to a point. I don't have sex, we haven't had sex in well over a decade, and my libido is dead. I know myself enough to know that if I fell in love and it was real and reciprocated, that my libido would go sky high. I tend to show my love during sexy times as well. I am fully monogamous. I just want you. I like guys who are clingy and affectionate. Quiet and feeling. If you know who Cove Holden is, like that. I'm into 70s/80s music, food and I like to explore the country in driving. Next year , I hope to go back to school for Cybersecurity and at one point I will be moving perhaps to the desert southwest. Ideally, I'd love to meet you and we talk and develop a rapport. We become friends and communicate daily. Feelings develop between us and the bond is stronger. One day, we are able to meet and we know we need each other. We go from there. I don't know if this will ever happen but I'd love to see it become a reality. I'm just a bear who wears his heart on his sleeve. Things have been bad in my life since my son passed in 2021. I developed a walking disability, a vertigo/vestibular disorder that can be caused by severe grief. I'm trying to get my life back on track. I'd really like to know that you are out there. Hugs, J