Nothing in here is a dealbreaker. I know what I wrote is pretty intense but I also love soft Partners. I'm looking for a long-term partner who gets off on controlling me and dealing out psychological abuse and manipulation. ESPECIALLY forced starvation. I have an anorexia kink and would really like someone to pretend to be an ana coach and help me get to the lowest healthy possible weight for my BMI.

Other things I'm into: anal, freeuse, petplay, mind control, age gaps, BDSM, dom/sub dynamics, 1950s traditional gender roles dynamics, mild bimboism, throatpies, breeding, lactation, toxic lifestyle, VERY MILD piss play, and more.
About me: 23f overachieving college student that is in recovery. Speaks conversational French and Spanish, half arab, love to read, garden, embroider, bake, and go on adventures. Super interested in the zero waste movement, permaculture, homesteading, and LOVES camping, the outdoors, hiking, etc. Some of my favorite fiction books are Harry Potter, Little Women, and Frankenstein

Me as a partner: very devoted, adoring, and submissive (even in vanilla aspects of our relationship). I like to have long in depth discussions when getting to know someone and eventually have long phone calls. I live to please and will go out of my way to make my partner happy and surprise them. I'm extremely affectionate, compassionate, and loving. My main love languages are quality time and affection.

What I'm looking for: a sadistic dom that enjoys an ongoing relationship where we discuss our kink in depth, chat about other things, send each other dirty reddit posts and pics when warranted. Someone that is looking for a long term committed relationship and is secure in their masculinity and gentle. Preferably a man who loves to read and has outdoor/traditionally masculine hobbies. I would like a penpal that is also a friend and can talk about more than just sex and our kinks. Someone who wants to eventually bring this to real life, so someone close to my area would be preferred. I love to discuss philosophy and nature with my partners.