So I've always felt a little stuck between two worlds. My friends who have learned about my kink side and seen it's depths have called me a "Sweet Summer child with a very dark winter". I was raised as the good kid, going to church, eagle scout (yes I remember the knots), and staying away from drugs and alcohol. Under my surface however, I could tell there was a darkness that I enjoyed. Desires that took a long time to be comfortable with. Thoughts I didn't know I could share with others because I felt they were so...deviant.

It wasn't until college that I began to find a bit more balance. Yes, I might have been a leader in campus youth group, but I was also meeting people who found my needs compelling to their desires. It was always a secret, however, something that if I truly shared I don't think the world would believe.

So I ask you, dear reader, this:

How can I be a Dom that loves to explore pleasure paired with discomfort, while at the same time be a Daddy who loves to spoil and make my little smile with treats and tickles?

How can I be the man you look forward to introducing to your friends, while knowing we can have conversations about ways I can disrespect you that make you feel whole?

How can I be the partner that helps you celebrate your independent self, while knowing I can find joy in alleviating you of choice and giving you a devoted purpose?

How can I be the companion that plans the road trips to see the world, while feeding your desire to be kept underfoot?

How can I be the sanctuary of your stressful day by providing you a couch and nook under my arm to watch TV, while also being the fear that makes your heart race as you chased through the dark rooms of my house and fear what happens when you fall into my grasp?

How can I be the provider that sweeps you away to the city to find the perfect outfit to show you off for dinner, while also being the designer of your kinky attire that I dress you up and down in like a barbie doll?

How can I be the person that holds your hand as we walk downtown, but also the man who hold your throat as I take all you have to offer?

If you have any advice, I'd love to hear it. If you think the real problem is I just haven't met you...reach out. 😉