Long story…

First, I never had children. My career took precedence, and unlike many I enjoyed every moment of my working life. Constant creative challenges in advertising, technology, marketing, finance, mergers and acquisitions and more. Enough success that quite early I was able to retire completely. But recently a pregnancy risk desire awakened in me. Now the risk game should only be about pushing the envelope of safe days vs risky days. Some do it via careful timing, knowing when ovulation occurs, and enjoy the risking of coupling close to that time. Enjoying the thrill, while hopefully avoiding pregnancy. And for many who play this game the risk is imaginary, as some hidden form of birth control is used. The BC pill, or an IUD perhaps. But I also know that this is a game where the female partner is totally in charge. Being truthful or untruthful about the timing of her most fertile days, not mentioning that she occasionally or deliberately misses taking BC pills, even deciding to have her IUD removed. That should make a sensible man shy away completely. But oddly for me the possibility of a surprise “We’re pregnant” announcement adds to the thrill. Really necessary when playing the pregnancy risk game, and honestly a virtual inevitability if one plays the game long enough.

Second, I am now an older man. Mid-sixties. For women even close to my age the childbearing years, and frankly desire, are long gone. So when dating or hooking up with older women, the risk isn’t real. But I want the risk to be real, even knowing that risk may eventually translate to reality. All this means likely connecting with someone in their 20’s or maybe early 30’s. Now some think that a 5-year age gap is too much. Others would consider maybe 10 or 15 years. But this is an age gap that few, if anyone, can embrace. Yes, I should have awakened to this desire, kink or whatever it should be called decades ago. Too late know I suppose.

Third, and this will really take me off the list, I am a married man. I have been married to the same wonderful woman for almost 30 years and I love her dearly. I have no desire to change my marital status, even though my wife and I have not been sexually intimate for over a decade. That’s a long time to sit on one’s hands, bored, looking for some spark, some magic, the desirable element of risk that comes with not being fully in control. Sadly, that element that makes things even more desirable for me is most certainly the opposite of what a young sexy woman is looking for.

Fourth, know that outside of an additional relationship/connection desire, I have had three virtually lifelong passions. One is photography. No, I’m not talking about image captured via phone, but real, professional level photography. I was shooting photographs for a community newspaper before I was even old enough to drive. Trained in commercial photography. Created advertising images. And photography is still a passion that I exercise weekly or more, with pro-level gear and a studio to shoot in. Of course, you would easily become a favorite subject with large prints to hang on your walls. Sports cars are another passion. Over the years I have owned multiple performance-oriented BMWs, Mercedes, Corvette, even a Ferrari. Now my daily driver is a Porsche, my favorite car of all. I love nothing more than imagining us on a swift drive on a twisty road into the mountains, where we can overnight in a quiet, scenic room. And once my professional career ended, I embraced non-profit work, helping to support a community of people in need, I became a member of the Board of Directors of a national non-profit, and after exhausting the term limits of that service was one of the first elected to the Emiratis Board, a lifetime role.

I have a winter home in California (Palm Springs) and a summer home in the Midwest. So open to location. But proximity is wonderful, and there’s nothing better than receiving a “Do you have time to swing by tonight?” call.

Finally, I am and always have been a non-smoker and can’t tolerate smoking or vaping by others. I rarely drink, though don’t mind reasonable drinking. No drugs, including cannabis. 5’9” and extremely thin. So, if you are looking for an NFL linebacker type, I’m sorry, that is not me. And I’m truly not hung up on appearance. Hot is great but I gravitate to Plain Janes, the shy type or most any woman with a hidden desire to stretch beyond the boundaries of what might be considered proper behavior. Though BBW types aren’t my bag, sorry. I have always been STD free. While I am white/Caucasian I am equally open to Black, Brown, Hispanic, Asian and more. And no, I am NOT interested in sb/SD connection, so don’t even try.

So, there you have it. A much older married man with a pregnancy risk kink, requiring an extreme age-gap connection. With the thrill of total skin meeting skin contact and full and constant fluid exchange, even knowing that actual conception might happen never happen, Or happen almost immediately, or perhaps weeks/months/years down the line. And if/when that happens what will the result be? As the woman is always in full control of that decision, I honestly don’t know yet. But I do know that I will be excited.

No doubt you abandoned this by the first or second paragraph, but if for some inexplicable reason you read until the very end and actually want to respond, start out with a favorite baby name, whether male, female or both.