I am crazy to post this or even imagine that anyone would respond positively, but here goes…

I am 65 years old. Ancient by Reddit standards. And I have been fully and very comfortably retired since my late 40’s, after spending my career playing various roles to help turn a tiny, barely in business company into a multibillion dollar industry leader.

I am also married, and yes there is a significant age gap (more than a decade) between me and my wife. We never had children, both too busy with our careers. My wife is a wonderful woman who I love dearly. Unfortunately it has also been a dead bedroom situation for many years and wife is also post-menopausal

One positive is that I now spend summer months at a home here, and winter months at another home in California.

But the real complication is that over the past few years the breeding kink notion has invaded my mind. And it won’t let go.

Yes a breeding kink should be all about loving the risk of pregnancy, without actually creating a pregnancy. But I also know the role that both members of a couple would likely play, constantly upping the risk, whether via timing in the cycle, forgetting contraception, letting passion take over and more. Those and other methods could become a notion impossible to ignore. Even while knowing that it is almost certain to lead to an eventual “We’re pregnant” announcement. Panic? Yes but maybe also a secret desire?

And as women are generally thought to be most alluring and most fertile in their 20’s, the risk is greatest when the age gap is big time serious. Makes me wonder why my mind didn’t wake up to this notion decades ago.

So there you have it. An old guy with a breeding kink, idolizing an affair with an extreme age gap. If you have read this far I have to wonder why. And even though I can’t really expect a response from anyone but the haters, I had to get it out there.