hey! i don't really know how to write this but i'll try my best to explain what i'm searching for without making the post too long. it'll probably be pretty long still tho haha.

sooo where should i start. i'm basically making this post because i wanna find someone. someone i can talk about anything to, who comforts me when i'm feeling insecure and cheers me up when i'm sad. someone who wants to be mine, and only mine. my biggest dream is to find the person i'll be with forever, who won't leave me for someone else even tho i may not be perfect. i'm not sure i'll find this person, ever. but i'll rather try and fail then not try at all and never know what would have happened if i did it.

i'm obviously also into bdsm, and my main kinks would be tpe, cnc, ddlg, pissplay, praising, breeding and degrading. i'd like to talk more about this in private since i don't feel too comfy sharing my sexual thoughts and needs where anyone can see.

well, i guess i should talk some more about myself now. i'm currently not in a very good state of mind because of various reasons. i'm very very insecure and therefore i won't send photos until i feel fully comfortable with doing it. this may take up to several months. if this is a dealbreaker for you i completely understand it, but i just wanna be as honest as i can so that we won't waste each others time. on the days i don't do a lot, just mostly sitting in my bed. if you wanna tell me that i should be doing more or that i'm lazy please don't. i'm working on myself and my mental physical health so i'm fully aware of my situation. i really don't wanna sound rude but a lot of people try to educate me/tell me what to do when i tell them about this and i'm sick of it.

something i really like to do is writing. i wouldn't necessarily say that i'm good at it but it's a hobby i enjoy a lot. the coolest thing ever would be becoming a published author. that's like a childhood dream for me haha.

the things i'm looking for in a guy is someone honest, loyal, monogamous, who won't cheat, is a bit jealous and overprotective, who does not care too much about weight or looks and is patient. i'd preferably want someone who can provide for me and who doesn't feel like it's a big need to have kids. i'm actually really confused about if i want children or not. both choices obviously has it pros and cons. it's also really important that you're talkative and like having voicecalls. i'm up for one anytime so just tell me if you're in the mood for calling :)

soooo yeahhh, i kinda think that's the most important things. feel free to send me a message, me dms are always open <3