Pretty much for the past 6 months I've been seeing this woman. Over the course of seeing her the worse it got. I pretty much allowed this woman to mentally abuse me, manipulate me, gaslight, and steal from me. So yeah I'll admit I'm not the brightest crayon in the box....the truth is I became scared to leave her. Anytime we would get into an argument it was usually over something small and she was the one starting it. She could never talk calmly and have an adult conversation and I was constantly being blamed for all of her problems. She misses work because of me, I don't care about her at all, I'm cheating on her, I would rather be with a man, anything to start an argument. Usually I'm a pretty calm person, but she'd always be raising her voice at me which would then in turn make me raise my voice back sometimes because I'd get so tired of hearing all of her negativity. It was almost like when nothing was wrong she had to make something wrong.

I work overnights and I was leaving for work. She was over and drank some vodka in the morning....we got into an argument about an old journal of mine she had found in my closet where I wrote some things about my ex. All day she was in a sour mood and I kept asking what was wrong and she kept dismissing it and saying I don't care anyways. Hours later I finally got it out of her....pretty much she was jealous of my ex at the time, which then shifted onto i treat my pet cats better than her which made no sense I always try to accommodate her and not make her angry. We went to bed and things were fine for awhile... Tonight when I got up for work I caught her going through my phone hardcore....like messages from my mom, my brother, a few close friends. When I called her out on it she got angry and said she was just looking to see what time it was, yet I laid there for 5 mins behind her watching her go through my phone. I got up and went for a new pack of cigarettes on the counter that i had just gotten before I went to bed unopened now only had 4 cigarettes. I asked her what happened to the pack of cigarettes i bought for her the same day. This turned to her throwing a lamp across my bedroom, shoving me, smacking me across the face. I asked her calmly to leave and she refused and started yelling at me. I called 911 and explained the situation and waited outside my own apartment for the police. The police came and seen how combative, argumentive and not making any sense made her leave or shed be arrested for trespassing. The one officer told me if I find anything that doesn't belong to me that she might have left behind to just throw it away and don't look back.

Flashforward a couple hrs later and I'm at work. I blocked her number but before I did that I see all these audio messages saying she's gonna tell the cops I hit her and prove abuse but I never touched her or did anything! It was always something she'd always say anytime we'd get into one of these arguments she'd threaten to hurt herself and call the police and say I did it because she'll make it look believable. Now I guess I'm kind of wondering if I should go to the police station and file some form of report and maybe show them all these audio messages where she's trying to play a victim. Other than being a gullible fool I really did nothing wrong! She hit and shoved me but I have no way of proving it because she didn't hit me hard enough to leave a bruise or anything.