I've had a lot of bad things happen to me over the past few months. It started when I lost my job in May, and during that time I stopped taking my medication (Zoloft and Wellbutrin). I also had to stop going to therapy because I couldn't afford it. Now my therapist is out of network and I'm not in a mental or emotional state to start the painful process of finding a new one. I've become increasingly more depressed since then due to more life problems that I can't solve. I'm pretty much at my breaking point, and I've been contemplating suicide more and more the past week or so (this holiday weekend was torture).

I haven't seen my psychiatrist in a min..and she's under the impression I'm still taking my meds (unless my pharmacy notified her I haven't filled my script in a long time). In the past I found therapy and meds to be more helpful for me than medication alone. But I'm at a low point so I'll do anything.

SSRI's can cause suicidal thoughts, I've been off Zoloft (100mg) about 4 months, is it a bad idea for me to start taking them again now? If I'm already suicidal, will antidepressants make it worse or better at this point?

I know none of us are doctors, so I'm just asking for opinions and/or personal experience. Thanks in advance!