My husband left our marriage in July 2022 in a really emotionally traumatizing way. I basically lost him overnight to another woman. It broke me. I wasn’t ok for months after. We had been together 10 years. I had to tell him to stop coming home if he wanted to continue to fuck her while we unraveled our life.

September rolled around and I wasn’t getting any better. My mom, who is the most loving and supportive mother in the world, just looked at me and said “you have to stop crying..”. I remember standing at work and thinking I didn’t want to live, that it would be easier if it was over.

I got help. I asked my doctor to help me. I was prescribed 25mg of Zoloft. The first month I felt tired. I basically came home from work and got into bed. I remember I had a week where I just ate shitty home made sandwiches, nothing else. My anxiety was horrible.

December came and it was my husbands birthday, I made the decision to move into my dads house (he lives in Mexico 10/12 months a year) and enroll in university. I remember one night while making dinner by myself, I fell to the floor and didn’t stop ugly crying for almost 24 hours. I developed a stress sty in my eye. I looked like Quasimodo. My best friend said maybe I should up my dose so I asked my doc.

50mg now. Got through the move, the holidays and starting school while also working full time. I took on a lot.

My social life started to suffer, and I was busy and still dealing with my ex who treated me like garbage with no regard to my feelings. It felt like too much and anxiety started to creep back in. Asked my doc to up my dose again.

I am now 75mg for almost 3 months and I feel like I’ve finally got the right dose for me right now. I don’t have that physical/ gut reaction to things that would make me emotionally spiral. It feels nice. I feel like I have more control. I don’t wake up sad about my marriage ending. I don’t let stuff at work bother me. I look forward to the summer and my newfound freedom. I’m thankful for a new outlook on life. Im most likely going to be on this for a long long time.