I only put this as rant because I expect to be making excuses and saying why I can’t do that or this or whatever. I’m autistic in America I’m 19 as of now I’ve been actively applying to jobs since last year. I haven’t had a single job yet. I want to start making money now not 3 or 5 years from now when my coding skills are good enough to be freelance. I don’t know why jobs just won’t hire me. I’ve volunteered a few times. I have other skills and new interests that are starting to pop up. Embroidery, drawing, painting. I don’t have the money to get any of this stuff to be a source of income I don’t have the tools to make it efficient I’m not great at it. It’s not the money it’s having skills it’s being important and having a purpose having something to bring to the table. All I have is shitty art a shitty computer. I don’t have faith that what I can do is enough to help anyone that it’s enough to make anyone happy. I’ll be happy once I have something to bring to the table and I’m not just some parasite.

What makes me unique how do I stand out from everyone else and who’s going to pick me. Everyone is told when going into the job market they have to bring something that other people don’t. “When everyone is super(unique) no one will be”