Hi all,

I'm currently doing a pretty full on pranayama training course and it has made me reflect on the fact that all of the techniques in yoga that are designed to bring lightness to the body are extremely triggering for me.

I've been practicing for years with shatkarmas, asana and pranayama along with sattvic diet as far as possible, and the common thread I'm noticing is an emphasis on raising the energy up - this is the goal of Hatha after all. I don't feel that I'm doing anything wrong as far as the sadhana is concerned, I just wonder what to do about this aversion to it. It's like I really want to experience that lightness but then I get a glimpse of it and everything is like NO GO BACK. Of course I will talk to my teacher about this but I wonder if any of you have had similar experiences.

I just want to be a rock and cement myself into the ground this is so uncomfortable.