Good Morning xxketo! Yesterday was a horrible, yet eye opening day for me. Recently I have been struggling really bad with my weight. I started keto September 2014 and was doing great for about 2 months, I lost 17 lbs and was feeling great. Then came a breakup, followed quickly by the holidays and a month long visit from my less than supportive mother. This time was filled with excuses, self loathing and generally crappy eating. Since the beginning of the year I have just not been able to get my head in the game and have at this point totally gained back everything I lost ,plus a couple bonus pounds.

Well, last night I had my eyes opened for me. I do home visits for my job and saw my future self in a patient. Morbidly obese ,unable to get up to the bathroom or for a glass of water. Junk food littered her messy room, I could smell the urine she was sitting in and she could barely breathe. It was devastating. I came home and sobbed for hours, angry at myself for my lack of self control, and scared that I might never get my weight and eating habits under control. Last night I also purged for the first time in over a year. It was absolutely a terrible night. I had horrible nightmares and am an exhausted mess today.

So today I am re-commiting to keto, I can and will do this for my future self. And for my present self. I deserve better than this self loathing.

TL;DR:my eyes are opened, it's time to care for myself.