Female, 26, 5'7 and 183lbs. Reduced calories from around 2300 a day to 1200-1400 a day.

So it seems obvious that I screwed something up. I'm probably miscounting something. I don't have a scale to weigh my food so I think I might be getting my portions wrong.

I've been doing very minimal exercise. Just some pushups and squats every day. Like, x17 knee pushups and x25 air squats. I also walk when I can. I am recovering from a major abdominal surgery I had last october that only finished healing last month. So I don't want to rip my scar open or anything crazy like that. Plus the pain gets pretty severe if I overdo it.

I have later stage endosalpingiosis, which is pretty much like endometriosis but it is more rare and originates from the fallopian tubes instead of the uterus. In the fall I had surgery to remove some of the tissue and tumors. I also lost my ovary because it had a big tumor in the middle of it.

My hormones are fucked up and I have super irregular periods and also signs of menopause.

Plus I take a lot of psychiatric medications for bipolar disorder. I can list if needed. They aren't really optional, though.

It's only been a couple of weeks since I started counting and exercising. But I was horrified that I ended up putting on about three pounds. And my clothes are tighter than ever. I'm still cutting my calories and exercising, trying to increase the intensity slowly. I have a calorie tracker on my phone.

This is making me super depressed. I hate what I see in the mirror and I am really disappointed that this isn't helping. I don't know what to do and I don't want to be overweight. People treat me differently. I can't fit in my clothes anymore and don't have money for new ones, so I mostly wear my husband's stuff and it makes me feel super unfeminine, which also hurts my self esteem.

Ugh.