I have a 14 month old and I feel so lonely and depressed lately. I’ve never had a ton of friends but before having my son I had a few local friends I would hang out with. It feels like all my friends abandoned me since I had my son and never invite me to anything anymore. I tried so hard for so long to maintain the friendships I had but it was exhausting to put in so much effort and not get anything in return. So I focused on trying to make new friends, and really put myself out there. I met other moms with babies around the same age in the neighborhood, at parks, etc, and put myself out of my comfort zone to ask for their number to get together for a playdate. I met 4 other moms this way, and I have probably hung out with each of them 2-3 times before it completely fizzled out. Again, I was always initiating, we had a fun time, but then I never heard from them again. I truly don’t understand what I’m doing wrong and why it feels like nobody wants to be my friend. The latest “friend” canceled on me twice in a row and never rescheduled. I can’t keep putting myself out there just be rejected over and over again, but I feel so fucking lonely lately and mentally very fragile. My partner and coworker are my only social outlets lately.