i was feeling worthless so i decided to find a man to service to make myself feel better. it took me almost two hours just to find someone interested in my mutilated ftm body. we agreed on safe sex and no pics or videos.

i got to his house and he was already naked and told me to strip. i stood naked in front of him and he laughed and slapped and pinched my chest where my tits used to be, and then he reached down and fingered my pussy while he told me that i was lucky he couldnt find anyone better tonight.

he put some porn on the tv and sat down with his legs spread and pushed me to my knees in front of him. he watched porn while he held my head and fucked my throat like a fleshlight. halfway through he started filming me sucking his cock, and when i asked him to stop he just slapped my face with his cock and told me he knew i loved it. i don't know why but i just went back to sucking.

once he was hard he made me lay down on the couch and take several hits of... something. it wasn't weed or tobacco, but it was in a pipe. he held the lighter for me and fingered my pussy and made me take three huge hits. i'm still feeling dizzy and kind of off from it, but in the moment it made me insanely wet and horny and lightheaded.

soon after he lined up his cock with my pussy and i managed to ask him to put a condom on. he just told me that stupid trans bitches don't get to ask for things, and then he shoved his cock in me.

he was so big and it honestly hurt so much but because of the drugs i was moaning and calling him sir and daddy and i came on his cock pretty quickly. after i did he pulled out and sat up. he set his heel on the floor with his toes pointing up and told me to ride his foot. god i don't know why i did it. but i stroked his cock while i slammed my pussy into his toes... and i eventually came on his foot.

i only noticed he was filming again as i was cumming. i have no idea what he's going to do with that video. after i came he bent me over the couch and watched porn while he fucked me from behind. it took him about 20 minutes to cum, and despite my protests he wordlessly came inside me and then fucked his cum into me.

he took my underwear (boxers) and gave me a used dirty thong and made me put that on. i went home with it under my clothes and im still wearing it now while i rub my pussy and think about what a useless whore i am... the worst part is that this only made me want to be degraded and humiliated more... i just want to go out and serve more men... what is wrong with me?