So I recently have been feeling pulled more towards seeking the help of relatives who have passed. For example; my grandparents on both sides (all grandparents on mother and fathers side are deceased but I did know in this life 3/4). I have always felt a deep kinship to them and have had the inkling that I may get my intuitive/empathic/witchcraft leaning nature from one or more of them. Since as tradition on both sides of my family everything is one big secret and nothing is ever discussed there’s no real way to get those answers from living people. Jump to this past week; a couple of nights ago leading up to the full moon during evening meditation I felt drawn to summon their assistance through dreams. I called upon all of them. Then there was another night after in almost a dream like trance I vaguely recall doing hand symbols that felt almost like a spell but moving my hands as if being guided by someone else. Mid way through the television flashed and I snapped out of it and had a feeling of “this is dark maybe I should stop” so I went to bed. The primary reason I’m asking for really any input anybody may have is because of last night. Last night I called specifically upon my maternal grandmother who lived the longest of them all and quite frankly I feel in my soul had some sort of connection to witchcraft. What I experienced can only be described as disorienting. I’d asked her to tell me things about our family or things I needed to know that nobody would tell me. While laying down I began to feel again almost as if in a trance. I was barraged with what felt like repressed memories bubbling and locking together into place like when you do a tarot spread and at first you wonder what the cards are saying and the longer you meditate the more things click together into an “aha” type moment. Except it was all dark and overwhelming. I had the feeling I’d done it before at least 3 times and remembered at the point things got tough before I’d asked her to stop and I guess I’d subsequently forgot it even happened. So today I figured I’d do some more research before stepping back into it, hoping having more knowledge of what I was doing would make it less uncomfortable. The term that came to me to search was “ancestral invocation” now all the results seem rather dark. So please if anybody either thinks this doesn’t sound like that, but something else let me know so I can delve into researching that. If it does seem like that, if anybody has experience with this type of magic and has words of advice or book recommendations, I would really appreciate it. Thank you, and sorry for the very long post.