now this is unfortunate but I want to die and thinking of doing it Monday, just wanted to share with anyone, so here I go

My name is Chris sloggett and I'm 25 from Oregon stayton to be exact. I met this wonderful woman named Taylor and she was definitely out of my league, but she took a risk got know completely younger stranger. But I'm glad she did . So picked me up from my neighbors house, because I was in the process of moving out of my ex's house and thought that be a no or awkward thing, but eventually more blossoms and I found myself deeply devoted to this woman but my ex made my life difficult and this woman had trauma and round this time my mother wa going to be homeless and I had her rent room , but when ever I was gone, my mom would slander and gossip about me and how me being gone remind her of my father and how he is slime ball . Her adopted daughter also lives there , quite girl, but gossip lot type, in everyone business even though she is only 16 not all things she needs to know about. Anyways not so soon after my love she dump me asking for space now she erased herself from my life and I'm homeless, and I'm so heartbroken, I have no support group and my family doesn't seem care bc told my mom and brother and neither cared only to call once . I have no friends and I got job but to no avail nothing I do is enjoyable everything, everyday I think of her and what my life be like if I was happy , she tells me she wishes things would be different but continues to snuff out my soul, and tht things can't change , she is 33 , she hid me from her friends, bc I went to get clothes and her friend trued call cops saying this girl my ex told her i wasnt allowed there but she was like the one... , my mom moved away but went I told her she just told me she was sorry and that she hopes I don't and life is better and I told my little brother but he was to busy smoking blunts kicking with my cousin and steippers so I ended up going to his house in Salem(30mins) away but he really didn't seem sincere idk . So no support group. Just really wanted a female for ever type shit and now I feel like no value in myself even with a job and school, theres nothing