The most intense one I might have ever had, and I'm coming up on 2.5 years out.

...It fucking HURT. Like, real, intense, physical pain associated with the hyperventilating/sobbing, that I'm still a little sore from. I just...I dunno. I felt like I had to share. I got my PTSD diagnosis a while ago but that was mostly associated with the grief...how do they say it? "impacting my daily life" (Like it could ever not??). And things I've heard or seen have triggered like, crying or anxiety. I avoid a lot because it hurts but I generally keep going. But this was the first full on vivid flashback actually triggered by something other than me searching my memories that left me just...flailing.

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I dunno. I'm ok now. I wasn't alone, and I got through it. And most importantly I didn't cancel any of my plans for yesterday. But I guess I just wanted to share.