This will be the third birthday without her. We used to take vacation days off from work and celebrated all day long. Three years ago, she started homemade salmon patties and biscuits. The chemo wore her out and I finished for her. I made gravy from scratch and it didn't turn into cement! I tried to make her banana pudding (from scratch too) but tried using Splenda; that was a disaster, it looked curdled like scrambled eggs. I redid it using less than the normal amount of sugar. Her birthday lunch turned out pretty damn good. I had a damned good teacher.

This year is a little better than previous years. I miss her everyday but I'm slowly getting better.

My hope is that all of you suffering find a measure of your peace, that's my hope for me too.