I wasn't sure what to tag this as, but idk if I can keep dedicating myself to the bnwo ...

I had a goddess that I would serve and made me go deeper and deeper but I lost her and I feel really aimless

I had so much built up and now it's gone

I wanted to meet someone in person but lost them

I feel like it's all falling apart ... I don't have anyone or anything meaningful that's forcing me to submit and I feel like I'm slowly going back to my old ways

If I could find someone in person... A snowbunny to serve ideally but even another whiteboy to just be pathetic right next to I feel like maybe it would be enough, but I've lost hope

Where do I go from here... I don't know if I want to keep going or how to go deeper again even if I wanted to 😖