I think jealousy is natural. Not jealousy about wanting to be a black man. But jealousy about wanting to be a snowbunny.

You'll never be black. You'll never have a big or even adequate dick. You dont even have enough testosterone to be interesting as a dom.

And be honest, if you feel jealous watching a blacked scene, you dont wish you were him. You dont think about wanting to make changes to be more like him.

You wish you were her. She looks so happy servicing his BBC. She's in ecstasy. You want to feel how she does. That's why we cage. That's why we rub. Inching closer and closer to being like her. Feeling what she feels.

It's also attainable in some respects. You can serve a BBC like she does. Offer your holes. Submit. Make him cum. Obviously snowbunnies are better than us, but we can make ourselves available for service.

So it's ok to be jealous. Of her. Not him

You dont have BBC. There is no such thing as BWC. Get on your knees to serve. If they use you, great. if not, keep waiting until you're useful.