So I have the emotions arising where I want to run for the hills and/or pull the plug on getting cucked, again…... My partner has been understanding but grows more and more curious, and may grow weary of the offer or kink entirely if I don’t follow through or imagine. (This has been many fights in the past, most due to me trying to either get it done and over, or pulling the plug.) As a result, I’ve requested remaining pussy free until after the deed is done with a bull. She has taken her role with pride and looks good doing it. I’m caged daily since pussy free. So no post nut clarity can be had. She is on board thus far getting bbc. So how do I silence my heart and brain so this sissy doesn’t lose the opportunity to my alpha side that wants to remain in control and pretend I have what is necessary to please her. I need this shaming to put me in my place and make amends with having a small penis. Besides, I wanna try dick myself…. Or so I think?!?! 🙄 the decisions…. Advise me fellow whitebois! 💋