So, I live a surprisingly 'normal' life despite the appearance of my reddit account and how deeply addicted I probably am to all of this and porn in general. Between being super busy with work and some other stuff, and being on holiday, I've spent 2 weeks or so with pretty much no porn.

I felt more productive. My mind felt clearer. My relationship benefited from it too. I felt no real urges to open up this reddit account, or twitter/X, or any other porn accounts I have. On the surface its only positives.

And then I felt horny this morning. Some basic, vanilla porn won't hurt to jerk to, right? Wrong. Scrolling through reddit quickly went from vanilla, to kinky and hardcore, to threesomes, to cuckold, bi cuckold, femdom, sissy, chastity, interracial, BBC. It was like my brain made me re-live the natural progression of my addiction over the last few years in only a few super intense minutes.

It didn't take long for me to be back to watching a combination of BNWO, cuckold, sissy type videos with a complete focus on big black cock, cumming as fast as always with this stuff.

I'm not sure there's any way out anymore. I still get crazy post nut clarity, but it's slowly feeling like the only way this ends is when I'm sat watching my gf get stretched and filled by a huge BBC. Or worse still, letting some huge muscular black bull put me on my knees, put me in chastity, remove what's left of my masculinity and slowly turn me into his little BBC addicted sissy bitch.