so this has been a big dilemma for me since the past few months, i started off like every whiteboy, i got into femdom, wearing my mom's panties when i was 15, but then i discovered the BNWO when i was 17 and boom, i haven't gone back to anything. but now 2 years later, i am so deep into it that the only way i can cum is when i'm busting my balls while locked. about 8 months ago, i discovered the prejac subreddit and i've been trying to improve my record. but my biggest dilemma: do i edge and goon and stay locked with no orgasms or do i get better at being a prejac while being locked, it comes down to whether i focus on giving myself orgasms or not bc i believe that i don't deserve orgasms and that they aren't good for me whether they are ruined or not. i would appreciate y'all's thoughts on this.