Firstly, I'm past the point of just 'liking' BBC and BNWO porn now. It's a full on addiction and the only porn I cum to.

I can barely stroke for 20 seconds before I cum so it's time to admit I'm fully prejac for it as well. The only way I can last longer is by rubbing through my pants to dull the sensation and just leaking for hours on end before pulling it out to cum within a few seconds.

I love finding men online, mostly those with BBCs and helping them cum as hard as possible, but as soon as I cum, it all changes. I immediately go back to only thinking with my "straight" mind. Denial is fun (I even use chastity for it), but getting fully over PNC is the real goal.

The first time I ever go through with it and meet up with a BBC for real (it's only a matter of time at this point), the hottest thing would be for him to make me cum first. The default position is whitebois/sissies/bottoms get denied, or fucked to sissygasm, to avoid PNC and only serve their black king, but I'd rather he took a different approach.

I want to be stroked to my first full orgasm at the exact point he's about to enter me. The PNC would fill my head, the shame would come, maybe some regret, I'd want to stop, I'd want it to be over, but he wouldn't. He would just be getting started as he slid inch after inch into me, and would spend the next 5 minutes literally fucking the post nut clarity out of me. But as soon as he sees me start to enjoy it again, he grabs my cock and immediately strokes it to another huge, prejac orgasm and the PNC returns, but its not as bad as the first time. All the while he never stops fucking.

Two full orgasms and two full doses of post nut clarity later, I'd be spent. My balls drained and my cock limp. I imagine this is now the point he'd put a chastity cage on my cock, fully affirming my position as his toy to use now.

From that point on, it only ever gets better. The PNC is gone. I have no urge to cum. All I want it so serve this black king and make him feel good, and he can go for as long as he wants without worrying about me cumming again and ruining anything.