There's no real denying it any more. I'm addicted to the BNWO and BBC. I can't believe I'm admitting this but it's true. My gf of 7 years has no idea. Our sex life has been in decline for a while and porn has been my escape. I'm so far down the rabbit hole now there's just no turning back, but I'd rather cum to BBC porn at this point anyway than have sex.

I've been exploring chastity (solo) for a while now and it's pushed me further down the path than I even thought was possible. I don't just want porn any more. I want the real thing. I want to fuck a BBC and feel the power of it. Feel him stretch me out and fill me up while I'm wearing my chastity cage and put me firmly in my place in the BNWO, making me cum from his cock filling my ass and realising it's the only way I ever want to cum.

There's no way out of this. I've tried and tried but I can't escape the thoughts. It's a matter of time before I get fucked by BBC. I feel bad for wanting to go behind her back. When my gf left for work this morning and I put my cage on I never expected to find myself writing this on here, but it feels so good to admit it. I was close to cumming just writing this out, I can't imagine what the real thing would do to me.