(Sorry for my english, it’s far from decent) I’m (or was) on a 6 month relationship with a woman and she had lied to me a lot of times on some little stupid things, and I’m sick of it. I’m starting to have synthoms of depression, panick attacks and anxiety.

We are living in different countries, we never meet each other, but we were online friends for 2 years till the beggining of 2022 when she told me that she felt that I’m her soulmate. We fall in love, and since that day we never stopped talking.

We had planned to get together this year, but little by little my confidence has been broken. She has lied to me with many little things which I have let go because of the love I have for her. However, the last lie has to do with her former job, she was a virtual sex worker when we were friends, and she decided to leave that world out of love for me and for her mental health, she looked for a different job and everything has gone better . In her previous job she made many friends who were followers of her virtual alterego on social networks. The problem is that we both agreed that she was going to leave behind those bonds she made with men who were her viewers/clients at her old job, she told me not to worry because nobody knew her real name, just only two people in particular (another virtual sex worker girl and a guy), I told her that I did not trust the friendship with that guy, because he was a viewer of her. She understood me, and she realized that it was not a healthy friendship and left him. Today I realized that one of her former followers from her former job follows her on her personal Facebook and on her personal Instagram, and they leave messages between them, share images and things like that. I confronted her and said why did you lie to me? and she denied everything, saying that she hasn't lied to me about anything and that she didn't understand what I was referring to, until I was a little clearer and she accepted it, she accepted that she lied to me. at that moment my confidence was totally destroyed. I blocked her and deleted her from everywhere, but I feel a lot of pain and sorrow because she has been a very good person with me, she admires me and I admire her, in a very deep way, we both have a great admiration for each other, we share every day by chat and video call, we watch movies, we listen to music, we watch series, we have cyber sex, we have similar tastes, similar thoughts, we have many plans to live together and start a family. I want to make it clear that I have nothing to do with her former job, I was not a client of hers, and I am not a wealthy man either, she has been with me only for love, but I cannot tolerate these lies. I dont know what to do. Greeetings! Thanks.