I met this girl online via social media. She seemed distant at first but we got to know each other better with time. In total, we've known each other for 16 months. We would talk to each other via text or face time for hours during night time and day time. I started to fall for her last summer and I could tell she might have liked me too. But she didn't make a move or told me about it. Last Christmas, I asked her out and she said yes. Now that I think about it, she seemed to hesitate about it. Anyways, 5 months in this relationship were the happiest of my life. I love her personality, how kind she is, how diligent she is, how supportive she is. She makes me very happy.

I thought she was (17f) because according to the other online friend group we're in, that's what they said and she never denied it. I was OK with it because it was only a 3 year age difference and where I live, as well as where she lives, this is ok. We have not met yet.

I can see myself marrying her in the future ☺️ she's ambitious and not materialistic at all. I've seen almost all of her bad sides. And I love every one of them regardless.

A few weeks ago was my birthday. She gave me a lot of happy memories on that day. But she said something odd, she said "I want you to be as happy as you can be before we break up" in a joking manner. She also said that she might break my heart someday and that she hopes that these memories will soften the blow a bit.

Fast forward to today, we were talking as usual and she said "Hey, remember when you asked me if I would ever choose you over my family?". I said yes, mostly because it stung that she didn't give me an answer right then and there. I'd choose her in a heartbeat. Anyways, she explained to me that she couldn't choose me because she was an awful person and that I deserve better. She later on said that she was about to break my heart and I was going to break up with her today.

She told me she had been lying to me all this time. She asked me if I wanted an explanation via FaceTime, a video she prepared, a letter she prepared or a voice message she prepared. She said that she prepared a lot of ways because she didn't know how to come clean to me and that she was scared she wouldn't have the courage to do it in real time. I told her I wanted her to tell it to my face directly. And so she did, but at the same time, she sent me the video and letter.

She told me her real age and she explained to me why. She never intended on staying in the social media community group we were in for long, so when they asked her about her age, she felt that it was too private and embarrassing for her to reveal her real age to them. Like, what was a 27 year old doing here, playing a game with us? She said she only intended to be with them temporarily so she gave them a random age, which was 16. Granted, when she told them her age, they all thought she was a guy. She didn't reveal much about herself at the beginning. So she said she had no intention of staying or making a real connection with the players here.

Then she met me. We got along so well and she enjoyed talking to me a lot. We exchanged ideas and opinions with each other. We got closer, then we started video calling each other a few months later. As we became better acquainted, in order to keep up with the lie of her age while we were friends, she had to lie about other stuff too. She listed all the lies she ever told me. There were 12 in total. And she explained to me why she lied about these things too.

She's coming clean to me now because she's starting to fall deeply for me and taking our relationship seriously. But she felt that she couldn't do this or deserve this because of these lies. She's ready for me to break up with her, but if possible, she wants to make it work. 100% transparency. She told me that she knows that what she did was wrong and disgusting.

The two biggest ones were her age and that she was a university student. It made sense why she felt that she had to lie to me about it, but I feel betrayed. Why couldn't she come clean to me when I asked her out? I hung up on her and now I don't know what to think. I saw her video message and it was explained better there, less messy. Her letter was even more detailed. But I feel so hurt by this. I need advice. What should I do? She's the first person I ever fell in love with. And now I find out she ha skied to me about these 12 things.

Edit: I am on mobile so I can't type properly