We started talking last January 2020 and we started pretty bad as we both had issues with our past before. Last year was the greatest plot twist of my life because I didn’t really see myself being in a serious relation especially with a girl but I guess it’s just really how two people connect.

Last weekend felt surreal. Although I only spent overnight with her (less than 24h),I’d do everything just to see her again. The parting was the hardest part, I was kinda tearing up on the way home with the hopes of looking forward to the day of being with her again.

She’s my ideal partner. I wish she’s the person I get to spend the rest of my life with but I don’t think it’s possible, not with our careers. See, I am a nurse and will be working abroad while she’s working for their fam business. That being said, we’re polar opposites career-wise. She straight up told me before we met that she couldn’t keep up with the distance when I get to the US. It really broke my heart to hear her say that because she used to tell me before that we’ll both fight for each other through the distance. We both agreed to just go with flow and still be together as long as we’re still in the same country.

I’m still thankful she gave me a heads up that she couldn’t keep up with the distance once I get to the US. I’m just not expecting so much anymore. I’m letting things flow and still reciprocating the same love she gives me. But I guess no matter how I prepare myself for that, I’ll never be ready for the pain.

What keeps me going now is looking forward to the day that we’ll see each other again soon. I just love her so much.