My boyfriend of seven months broke up with me, well he broke up with me in his mind as soon as he told me not to talk to him... I thought he was being hasty and hadn't thought things through... I thought I was helping, I thought he was doing this for me. I still don't understand why he broke up with me, I still don't know what I did wrong. We loved one another, to me that's all that matters I don't understand why it needs to be more complicated than that...

I kept trying to get a hold of him, he'd keep blocking me everytime so I kept making more alts to message him. The last thing he said to me was that I was creeping him out and to go away. That will hurt me forever. But at the same time I want to think I didn't deserve it... because nobody deserves to be broken up with so suddenly like that and blocked on everything and not understanding what happened. I just wanted to understand, to talk things through. It was all I could think to do to keep trying. Now I've ruined his image of me forever with my stupidity.

What do I do now? I'm too ugly and dull to attract anyone and now my confidence has been absolutely shot haha... I am unloveable. I was so happy, being with him. I want to fall in love again. I hope there is another man out there who could fall for an awful husk like me. I'm so stupid. I lost him. My Ethan.

I don't have any friends, I'm sorry again for being too personal or anything. I'm scared of people, I'm all alone. I thought I could get my feelings out, and maybe get at least a word of comfort. Sorry. Thank you if you read this.