So this guy and I have been “dating” for a few months and we videocall almost every night. We agreed not to label it boyfriend and girlfriend to prevent expectations and everything. I know what he looks like and I know that I found him attractive for a long time. Now that we’re meeting up I’m starting to overthink it and I’m trying to make myself think that I don’t find him attractive. I know that I do, but I think it’s the nerves, insecurities and fear of commitment taking over which are making me “unlike” him? I know it doesn’t make sense. Our relationships has waves in which I am so fucking in love with him and I just want to tell him that I love him, but we also have periods where I’m just doubting everything, which I think is logical? I’m scared that when I meet him all of my feelings are just going to be gone, and I don’t want them to be. Help? Does anyone have a similar story that can make me feel better and calm me down?