This guy (m23) makes me happy but I don't know if my relationship is viable. I love him and the idea of breaking up makes me (m19) cry. But life is so hard at home. I post here alot, ngl. Maybe some people here might recognize my username. I'm from Canada and he's from Philippines. Yes, I've been there before with my parents. But my parents are homophobic. I don't know what's the rational thing to do. My mom doesn't even let me leave the house so easily and discourages me from integrating with friends. She's controlling and overbearing. I don't know what I should do. I'm closeted gay but my mom has some suspicion that I might be gay. Should I choose love? Idk, dating in the closet is hard and it's harden when you have parents who are overbearing and won't let you live you're life. Yes, I'm a legal adult but that doesn't make any difference in my household.

My bf has been supportive and he's very public about me on his side. But I feel I might be just holding him back. Maybe I might regret the decision of breaking up. Maybe he might be the one. But he's my first love but circumstances are hard at home.