Hey ya’ll, some of you may recognize me some may not, since I’m the same guy who came here a few months ago and asked if I should confess to my crush even tho I’ve only known her for 3 weeks at the time. Then I gave a brief update in the comment section that she told that we should get to know each other for a little longer first and see if my feelings for her would change.

Well, 4 months have passed ever since, and I brought up the topic to her again around at the beginning of December. Much to my surprise she admitted that she’s developed feelings for me too, which made me very happy, though there have been some problems that are currently bugging us in our personal lives, and that made us realize that we aren’t ready to actually start dating just yet, so we both made a promise to each other to sort out these personal problems first before we’re ready to commit to an actual relationship. Although for the time being, she doesn’t mind if we talk like a couple and say “I love you” to each other from time to time, just for funsies but also serious at the same time, since we DO have feelings for each other and all.

But now that I’ve given you guys an update, I should probably address the problem(s) I’ve been having.. hence the title “I need help”.

Ever since I first met and started talking to her, a lot of emotions that I never thought I’d ever feel again had come back out, which had also led me to fall back into a few certain bad habits from my past; such as overthinking everything and worrying about the smallest of problems that doesn’t deserve any attention, and including easily getting jealous from time to time. I’ve been doing a decent job at holding back but I dont know if I can keep up for much longer, so I’m looking for a permanent solution just in case I break.

I’m already well aware that this shouldn’t be a big deal or even anything thats worth worrying about in the slightest, which I absolutely agree, and that makes me hate myself even more for feeling this way because I literally have no reason to feel this way at all. She’s already confirmed to me that she loves me back and wants to be in a relationship with me WHEN she’s ready so what is there to worry about?

All of these bad habits of stemmed from back when I was stuck with that toxic friend for 4 years, and let me tell you those 4 years were absolutely miserable. I should also point out that I myself used to be rather toxic towards a couple of my friends way back, so at the time I felt like I had it coming when I got myself into a 4-year long toxic friendship and I just saw that as my punishment. Although I really thought I had left everything behind when I managed to reform myself and also cut ties with that guy, so I thought that I could start out fresh, but apparently not ‘cause turns out those habits have just been hiding the whole time and now they’ve decided to come back out.

I’ve opened up to her about this a couple times and she always knows how to immediately calm me down and make me feel better, but its only for a moment, since the problems eventually come back when I least expect it. She’s been the most understanding, forgiving and lenient person I’ve ever met, but we all know that everyone has their limits, so I’m afraid that me constantly opening up to her about the exact same problem every couple other days will eventually annoy her at some point, and I don’t want to become an inconvenience to her.

Is there any advice that could possibly help me with getting over these past habits?