It’s getting late and I’m currently having a lot of regrets about my wedding choices.

I am inviting 150 people and that is the max my venue allows.

I’m in a bad rabbit hole now of comparing my planning to other weddings on the site and I just know my venue is going to be too small for 150 people, even though they say they allow that many.

They’ll be fitting 10 people per 60” round table. There’s only two bathrooms. There’s no available running water so everyone will need to go to the bar to get water bottles. But I decided I would get 2 50 oz water carafes per table to start everyone off with a glass of water, so that should help with water.

But at least 93 of those people are just family, and I know some people don’t invite their cousins and their cousin’s kids, but idk how I could have the wedding I want without doing that, and then I want some of my friends there and my fiance wants some of his friends there, and then his mom is inviting some of her friends and I don’t want to upset her and it’s too late now to reduce the count because I’ve sent invitations out, but I’m worried this will be a disaster. We are having pizza from a food truck, we will have alcohol (open bar), a DJ, food for cocktail hour, and 144 cupcakes and an 8” cake, so everyone will be fed and entertained, but I’m so worried it will be a disaster. How is anyone affording this? Money is tight for us, my fiance is having money trouble and can’t support me at all financially, and if mom wasn’t helping I couldn’t even afford what I’m doing. I might donate plasma for cash. I’ve already spent enough that I don’t think I can delay and still afford the wedding later.

Everything is just too real.