Hello weddit- I'd like to say first and foremost that I am not upset with any of the people in my party at all, rather that I'm just sad things aren't different. I love each and every one of my bridesmaids/MOH and understand their situations fully. They've all been wonderfully supportive where they can be throughout our friendships.

Everyone's asking me about what I want to do for my Bachelorette party in light of my Fiancé planning his bachelor party. All of his friends are planning this year around him, and are flying out for his bachelor party and the wedding with a "wouldn't miss it for the world, you name it, we'll do it" attitude that their lives can afford them. They're all men who have comfortable 9-5 jobs and people to lean on in their absences. They are excitedly planning, and people have started asking me about what exciting plans I have... But knowing my bridal party and their lives, I feel more guilty than excited.

My bridal party, just doesn't have as much wiggle room in their lives and I'm beginning to feel sad that I might not be able to spend some good time with my close friends because travel is less feasible and timing is just hard for them. My maid of honor for example is my #1 favorite person and I love her more than life itself. She already has to fly in for the wedding, and several months before, she's also flying in for her brother's graduation, so doing anything for bachelorette times is out of the question unless I were to travel to her and celebrate just us two.

My other close friends are also working a lot, some working in retail, some working in veterinary, etc, and getting time off or affording to do so is really hard. I'm half expecting half my invite list to bail last-minute because they have other things they just have to take care of, and understandably so. Some are dealing with mental illness, some have kids. I just feel like asking anything is asking a lot. Nobody's made me feel that way on purpose; I just know it's true. Everyone has a lot on their plates, I know objectively they don't love/support me any less, and despite knowing that, I'm feeling kind of sad and lonely wishing that I could have that feeling that someone would show up for me and really see me as a "can't miss it" this time. I don't even have a mom, and my dad is barely in the picture and also depends on me for support if anything.

My fiance's experience has just been filled with so much love and joy and all I feel is guilt and uncertainty so far. I just wish it were different for me.