So for the last three nights I have had dreams that we had a baby. One night I woke up thinking I heard the baby screaming and then realized that wasn't a thing. The next, I had a dream that I was breastfeeding the baby. I woke up the next day and my nipples hurt all day. That made it suck a bit more. Last night, it was that we were on a hiking trip and we had a baby in a carrier. It was cute cuz DH looked pretty sexy carrying the baby carrier.

I am really over these dreams. For several reasons, we won't be ready to start trying for over a year. I need to find a better paying job which I still haven't had any luck finding and have only been denied from several jobs since then. We really want to go on a big trip before baby. That was supposed to be next spring but now we can't do that because we have to use our time off to go to weddings instead. Which is stupid and makes me mad and I just want it to be about what we want for once. So that trip won't happen until at least 2017. I really don't want to be pregnant on that trip but I don't really want to wait that much longer just to try. I told DH that no matter what, we were going on that trip in 2017. It is time we put our needs and wants first. I need a new car and we need to save up some money.

Waiting definitely gives us more time to save up some money but damned if it isn't going to be hard to wait. We'll start trying next November or December. I'll just have to deal with the potential of being pregnant on that trip.

Anyone else finding it really hard to wait right now? Or that your wait is getting pushed back because others?