These dates are killing me. When DH and I first started taking about baby making, e decided that sound the holidays this year would be a good time to start. Well I got to thinking and looking at our finances and decided that might not be the best of ideas. We have a bit too much credit card debt for my liking. Weddings cost a lot of money apparently. Oh well, it was a beautiful day and I loved our wedding so whatever. Anyway, I said maybe we should wait until summer 2016 to start trying. He said ok whatever you want and feel best about.

Well I brought it back up a few days ago because money scares me. More bills keep popping up which is eating away at the money we had in our budget to pay debt. I did maybe we should think about pushing it back until winter 2016. He's not too keen on that decision cuz he wants to start now our this winter at the latest. So now our date is totally dependent upon whether or not I find a job. If I find one that I don't care about, i.e. retail or the like, we'll start trying this winter. If I don't find one or if it's one I like, i.e. in my field, we're pushing it back until the end of next year.

I hate that money has such a strong hand in this. It's frustrating. He also said that if we push it back again to next winter, that's the last time he'll agree to move it back because he is scared we'll just keep coming up with excuses. That's we're putting too much weight on days when we shouldn't be.

I don't even know what I wanted to get out of this besides to vent about money sucking. It's there anyone else out there in a similar situation? Where money is the only thing holding you back?