Hello WTT!

I've been subscribed and active on this sub for a few months but I never really made an introductory post. I just need some support right now because I've been thinking about cutting my wait by a year. My brain tells me I shouldn't. I have plenty of time. But I'm not handling the wait very well.

A bit of my story. I'm 23F (I know, too young to be this baby crazy) and my fiance is 24M. We were planning on getting married in September 2015 (so almost a year and a half away). I have a few requirements before we start trying:

1. We have to be married.
2. We need to be making more money.
3. Get health insurance.

Well we're working on all of those. My fiance just got a new job that has potential for him to be making double what I'm making in a year. And right now I'm the breadwinner so we'll be living well above our means. His new job has great benefits and once we get married I will have health insurance through his job. What we're waiting on the longest is the getting married part. Within a few months he'll be making real good money so if that was all I was waiting for I would start trying in a few months. I would try before we get married...but I need to be married to him to have decent health insurance. Otherwise I would pay 4 times as much on my own.

I have this weird requirement that I want us to get married on our dating anniversary because I can't part from that date and I don't want to celebrate 2 anniversaries. Well that's in September. If I get married this September it would just be a courthouse marriage. I already bought a wedding dress...but I haven't done anything else as far as planning a wedding. We were just going to go to Vegas and get it done, but I can't take the time off work this year to take a trip to Vegas.

I just feel really stupid for wanting to rush things. A few days ago, my fiance sat me down and told me that he doesn't think I can handle waiting this long. He doesn't really think ahead as much as I do. He keeps telling me I can go off birth control right now if I want. But there's so many reasons I can think of why not to do that. The only reason why I would start trying early is simply because I can't be patient. I'm just going crazy. And every months a new baby pops up on my facebook feed. I don't know how I'm going to make it this long and keep my sanity at the same time...