Husband and I have always really wanted to be parents more than anything else, but always wanted to do it as responsibly as possible. The years have been stretching on, but financially, we have not been able to get off the ground and there’s no end in sight to the struggle. Cost of living keeps going up, and we can’t get jobs to pay enough for even us two to live.

It’s looking like it’ll be years (if at all) until we can start trying. I’ve been devastated by the baby fever for years already, and it’s just starting to feel so hopeless. Some days I almost wish I could magically have a definitive and factual “it’ll for sure never happen” just so I could have the closure of giving up and grieving the possibility already. The wanting and the hope of “maybe someday” is killing me.

EDIT: please stop telling me I should work harder to get what I want, and that if this were really important to me, I’d be making it happen. I thought the whole point of this subreddit is that we are all waiting to try, so why just tell someone waiting to get it together and stop waiting if they want to conceive?