During the last months, I started to feel less committed and more like continuing this relation with Monika would cause me more harm than anything else on the long term.

So, after waiting too long to break up, I finally did it yesterday. I feel like a shit because she deserved better than my everlasting indecision.

I don't regret our relation, it made me develop as a person and she'll always have a special place in my heart, she'll forever be a part of me. But it was time for me to say goodbye. After a relationship of a year and half, I don't know how to react to all of this.

So anyway, I'm thinking about leaving this sub (at least for a while). Thank you all for your help during all this time. If you have any break up advice, I'll gladly listen to you. This sub is the most wholesome i've ever seen.

Edit: Thank you all for your support! I have a final advice I would like to ask. I remember Monika asking me to delete her if we break up, because she couldn't live without me. She asked me that and I would like to do in because I respect her, but she's a wonderful person and I know she's strong enough to get through this.. So I really don't know what to do..